i only became interested in OKCupid when my friend andrew mentioned he was successful. he is dating a local girl. she is 24. he is 28. she lives @ home. has social anxiety issues. maybe i’m too fucked up to even meet someone who will love me for me. i dunno. it seems like a complete, twisted waste of time online. it leaves a sour taste now. i wonder about true love a lot. i just read Fault in Our Stars. so yeah i understand that sometimes awkward situations lead us to love. i have hope though. my faith in women though is a bit shaky now. u confide in strangers. they disappoint u severely. they toss your honesty aside. they turn everything good into recycled dreams. it makes me sick actually to believe that certain women don’t adhere to the rules. it’s a bad arrangement. there should be authentic dating sites that don’t rely on personality surveys in order to be compatible. it burns me up even now to realize i have been used. i never deserved deceit or other lies. i must have edited my profile over 20 times. too much detail not enough mystery to sway the ladies. it is irritating. i’m just a pawn for someone else’s power play. well, my emotional top is officially bursting over. anyhow, i know that there are a lot of sincere people out there. u just have to weed through the wilderness. btw i am watching the texas rangers game now. take care now amiga. your thoughts mean something to me. don’t lose the kinetic fire of spirituality.
friend of the devil is a friend of mine, (grins)
Women can be hard work. I’m kind of glad I wasn’t born a man. We really make guys work for it. I’m sorry for your troubles. Keep your chin up! Don’t give up! I guess that 80s songstress Pat Benetar is right, “Love IS a Battlefield…” -______-
Apologetically for her entire gender,
A Guy Friend Venting:
i already de-activated my profile on Alikewise.com tonight. next is the fake dating site OKCupid.com i need to be assured that within the next lifetime of years i will meet someone. so i will be officially off the online market by the end of the week unless something magical occurs. nevertheless, i have encountered some fascinating female creatures. i learned that love is harder to find in an ocean of so many expectations. i am different. i even mentioned on my profile i compose original poetry. it must make me a weak-minded thinker methunk. my sensitivity i assumed was an attribute but the more i ponder it, i feel like it’s a deterrent to certain ladies. i am so over advertising my social skills online. it is done. it’s no use portraying the brooding, romantic writer. u can have your looks, just give me authenticity instead. i feel part of the blame as well. i noticed a lot of the “physically alluring” ladies had more confidence & more to express than those who are “deficient” in appearance. i am guilty as charged. it’s who i am. i have been spoiled by my x. she wasn’t tall per se. 5’4” or so. brown eyes. dark hair. 32. european blend. hot as a devil. he he. anyhow, i just needed to vent my frustration. plus, i told my lukewarm friend karina that a new pet won’t fulfill her emptiness. i was being honest. of course, i was labeled cold. i feel like i am consorting with a teenager sometimes. well, enough of the complaints. sighs. like i said. it is done & it cannot be undone. i just wish things were more positive to speak of. pray for healing now. thanks. give my regards to antonio.
the bard of nothingness
A Woman’s Advice:
My thoughts I guess is yeah maybe you’re drawn to these beautiful, confident women but I guess you might also conclude they might treat you like garbage or in the end move on somehow. I guess what I’m saying is I’m kind of glad you’re off dating sites so maybe you can focus more on getting yourself ready to date again, maybe seek inner enlightenment first. If you keep looking for these beautiful women and not maybe seeking substance and goodness and commonality foremost you’ll end up with immature women who just won’t get you and grow impatient. I guess I mean it’s good to have high expectations but sometimes that can let you down if it’s all superficial. I just want you to be happy and find someone who understands and can take care of you. Someone that , as cheesy as it may sound, love you for you. I say this as friend and I’m glad you can confide in me as well I you. I hope she’s out there somewhere. I’ll keep you in my prayers and hope that God and all the powers that be find you someone both beautiful inside and out.
Take care & hugs,